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My Jesus is weak.

I must repent, I have a defective view of who Jesus is. My defect is not that I put too much into my view of who Jesus, but too little. I know in my head that he is my propitiation, but his propitiation is too weak. I know the doctrinal truths of the historic creeds, but nothing of the passions which necessitated them.

Maybe I am not the only one guilty, but I am guilty. I am supremely guilt of seeking to be like the Apostolic Church in some respects but not others. I with, all my heart, pray that I will find “favor with all the people”, yet my prayers reveal that I do not care enough about speaking “the word of God with boldness” I have foolishly pitted God’s word against itself.

I have placed favor with the people over and against speaking the word of God boldly.

I am not interested in people, because I do not think that I can really bring these people anything that is really powerful. I think that the Gospel of Jesus Christ is weak, and therefore it is not important enough to mess up the status quo, of my life. I doubt what the Ghost can really do.

How does this fall out in my life, I sit in the coffee shop I smile and am polite to people, but I am afraid of messing up the status quo, I have friendly conversations, but I have no confidence in what Jesus can do.
When I have no confidence in what he can do, I, in effect, have no confidence in who he really is.

Jesus is the king yet I think of him as middle management. He is the Truth yet I think he is just a good idea.

Please help me, pray that Jesus would forgive my ignorance about him, and that I might have confidence in who Christ is and what he can do.